Twin "A"'s head @ 14 weeks

Had another ultrasound today. Everything looks great with the twins. They are measuring about 4 inches from head to butt (not counting leg length). Here is a photo of one of the twin's head. You can clearly see the eye sockets and the two hemispheres of the brain...oh, and the big round belly.

Caught with Live Boy

The old Huey Long quote was never more real. What's worse than being a congressman having wildly inappropriate instant message conversations with a teenage boy? Being on the House Caucus on Missing and Exploited Children. What's worse than that? Knowing a member of the House Caucus on Missing and Exploited Children was a pervert and doing nothing about it while holding town halls on how to keep children safe in cyberspace.

Rep. Mark Foley (R-FL) is just a pervert. Rep. Dennis Hastert is a slimebag for covering it up for a year.

Here's the link with the seedy IM chats

Week 13 update

Howdy, sorry for the absence. I guess I just have not had a lot to say lately.

The twins still appear to be doing well. Today I start week 13, and am a week into my second trimester. We had an appointment last week with a perinatal specialist (as recommended by my OB for all twin pregnancies), and we saw the babies again on ultrasound. They had gotten bigger, and we heard their heart beats for the first time. That was awesome...whoosh, whoosh, whoosh. We also saw them moved around, open/close their mouths, etc.

I hired a maid who is starting on Monday. I just physically can't do it anymore. The silly part is that I need to clean this weekend to get ready for the maid's visit. I know that makes no sense!

A few weekends ago, I went to Houston to visit my mom. We had a good time shopping for maternity clothes and baby clothes. It was a bit sad to think that will be our last mother/daughter weekend for a very long time.

Mom will be in town for part of next week and the weekend. She will be in town for business, and then staying longer to attend my two doctor appointments with me on Friday and Monday. Hubby will be out-of-town at a conference, and she wants to see the twins for herself on the ultrasound. She is amazed at the technology.

Yesterday, I got a facial and then has a minor breakdown. I cried and vented on hubby about how lonely I have been lately. I am not working. I am bored. I feel like I have be abandoned by friends I have had since junior high. I was upset that I never get to spend much time with hubby. It seems like we just see each other at dinner, and then that's it. Hell, I know my life isn't horrible...it was just the hormones speaking. I feel better today.

Venting More Fears

With parenthood looming just five short months away, I am beginning to realize just how much my life is going to change. I know that's a rather obvious statement, but it's sinking in. I mean REALLY sinking in now.

Hubby and I are a bit set in our ways. We like to sleep in on the weekends, we have our shows that we religiously watch, and the longer we are married the more boring we have become. I am used to just hopping in the car and going up to the store...or for a drive to relax...or any number of last minute things.

*sigh* I know what my real concern is...I have no idea how to care for a baby (let alone TWO). I was one of those kids that preferred listening in on adult conversations instead of playing with other kids. I am an only child. I did not babysit other children. I always feel slightly uncomfortable around young children. How do you talk to them? How do you play with them?

Everyone keeps telling me it will be different with my own children, and I will grow as a parent as the babies grow. I certainly hope that is true or else I am screwed.

Hubby has no fear. He is completely comfortable, excited and confident about this new journey. This baffles me since his experience level with children is about on par with my own. I can't tell if he is naive or just optimistic.

I wish I could get another ultrasound at my next doc appointment. I need to make sure they are both still there and growing at the correct rate. I really thought I would be bigger at this stage. Damnit, I need more confirmation.

Two New Members of Our Family!

I just wanted to announce that my cousin Julie had her twin boys today! I spoke to her last night, and she was feeling sick with a stomach bug. She was in her 33rd week and she was still a month away from where the doc wanted her to be. So, when I got a call this morning from my aunt saying that Julie's water had broken and she was being prepped for an emergency C-section, we were all nervous and worried.

The babies were both well over 4 lbs each -- which is wonderful news -- and were breathing without assistance. We are all thrilled and looking forward to meeting the newest members of our family.

Welcome to the world Wesley & Walker!

Feelin' Knocked Up

I don't have much new to report. I'm getting bigger. I've gained about 8-9 lbs. My world seems to be consumed with doc appointments. My glucose numbers are getting higher, and I am increasing my insulin to try to bring it back under control. The "team" (i.e., my specialists) seem to be slightly concerned about my blood pressure (it was 130/82 yesterday). I am eagerly trying to get through the next 2 weeks, and then I graduate into my second trimester! Time seems to be going by faster than I thought it would. Of course, I will probably say the opposite of that once I really start to get massive and uncomfortable.

I am thinking about letting my Realtor's license become inactive. Realistically, I know I won't be working during this high-risk pregnancy and won't have the time or desire once the twins arrive. It's tough to let it go even though I know I can always reactivate my license. I never thought I would end up being a full-time mom, but then again, I never thought I would be having two babies at once!

Baby, Baby!

I know it's hard to tell what the hell you are looking at here, but you CAN see TWO sacs. It also appears that the baby in the upper right is smaller, but he/she is actually slightly bigger than the twin in the lower left.

Guess What?!?!

Well, yesterday I got the shock of my life!

We went in for our scheduled first ultrasound yesterday morning. Frankly, I had prepared myself for bad news. In the past three days or so, I had not felt pregnant at all. No sore boobs, no fatigue, nothing. I felt "pre-pregnant." I was convinced they would not be able to find a heartbeat and the depression would begin.

I went in and they did a complete physical (I had gained 3 lbs. since finding out I am pregnant), and also did a Pap Smear. Then it was time for the ultrasound. He immediately found the baby. It looked like a little kidney bean with a massive heart beating very fast. I stared in amazement. I couldn't believe that little heart was beating inside of me. This entire pregnancy became a big reality at that moment. I looked up at hubby -- who was looking over my shoulder at the screen too -- and he smiled. I was transfixed at this little beating heart. The doc froze the screen and measured the baby. Then he started to move around again, and immediately said, "Oh, and here's a second heartbeat!"

WHAT? Second heartbeat? TWINS!

All of my tact went out the door at that moment, and I yelled out, "Oh shit!" (Apparently, I yelled this louder than I thought because when we exited the exam room, all of the nurses were giggling at me in the hallway and wishing me congratulations.)

So there they were...two little kidney beans with massive hearts beating rapidly! Fear washed over me. This is a high risk pregnancy due to my diabetes. I am terrifed. I have no idea how I am going to care for two babies at once. I need some time to really let this digest.

Hubby was cool, calm and collected. He is excited and saying he knew it all along. I am shocked. Scared. Overwhelmed. I just can't believe it!

8 Weeks & Terrified of Miscarriage

I know I have been horrible about blogging in the past month, but my whole world has been all about pregnancy since finding out on August 1st. I have been nervous about talking about the pregnancy publicly because, frankly, I am scared to death of miscarrying. I am still scared and I am not out of the woods yet.

[They say the highest risk of miscarriage is between weeks 7 - 11. I am 8 1/2 weeks pregnant, so I still have another month of worrying about this!]

Some days I feel pregnant (i.e., extreme fatigue, sore boobs, etc.) and other days (like today) I have no signs of pregnancy and I begin to worry. It is a total mind fuck. It took us three years to get this pregnancy, and I am just terrified of losing it.

I have my first appointment with my OB tomorrow morning. They make you wait until you are at least 8 weeks along before they will see you. They will do a complete physical, a Pap smear, and an ultrasound to see how things look. Hopefully they will also try to hear the heartbeat.

I just desperately need some evidence. Some proof. Some reassurance.

Hubby is going with me to the doc appointment. He has been great -- protective and sweet.

I will update tomorrow once I know what's going on. Wish me luck.

Exciting News!

Sorry for the long delay in blogging, but this time I have a good excuse! Last Tuesday, August 1st, I found out that I am pregnant! I absolutely can't believe it, and I am thrilled and excited beyond words!!

Hubby and I have been trying for about 3 years now. Last summer we went threw infertility treatments, and that was an emotional nightmare. That is also when I found out that I am diabetic. So, getting my diabetes under control became priority number one and we took a year long break from activity trying to conceive.

I am only about 5 1/2 weeks pregnant, and the only thing I can focus on is getting to week 12. Week 12 marks the end of my first trimester and therefore an 80% decrease in my risk of miscarriage. I am terrified of losing this baby. On August 29th we get to see the baby for the first time on the ultrasound...to that's the other big date on the calendar I am looking forward to.

I went to my OB and had blood work done to (a) confirm the pregnancy, and (b) to check my progesterone hormone levels. The pregnancy was confirmed and my hormones were sky high. I only have had a few moments of morning sickness (thankfully), but I have had lower back soreness (normal), very mild cramping (normal), everything taste bland to me (normal), vivid dreams (normal), irrational crying fits (normal...and funny), extreme fatigue (normal), and painfully sore boobs (normal). It's amazing how quickly my body has changed, and it has slowed me down this week.

Anyway, I will be posting more and I am sure this will end up becoming a pregnancy blog for the next 7-8 months. :) Man, I am still just in shock!

Baby is due either the last week of March or the first week of April...which is ironic since my 30th birthday will be March 31st.

More later....